Day #317

Hey there!

I've been in a hell of a lot of pain today, just getting back into the swing of things. It's quite hard to feel motivated when I find it hard to move, but I still managed to get to my lecture. 

This evening a group of us went to play pool in the pier. It was a nice way to take my mind off of the pain, but it still niggled away. Luckily Will was there and as soon as I had enough he was there for me and came back with me. 

Now I have my heated blanket on ready for a reasonably early night. I have a 9am lecture tomorrow so I want to feel refreshed, and hopefully be able to walk to the lecture too. 

Fingers crossed!

Becca x

Day #316

Hey there!

My second year of uni started today, with two hours of lectures. It was the beginning of the module called 'sustainability and resilience', which holds promise. It's the sort of topic that I want to have a career in, so hopefully it'll be as interesting as I hope. 

This evening we had a few people round and it was really nice. We just relaxed watching some television and just chatting, super lovely. It's nice to properly spend time with people without alcohol or lectures. 

Adios,

Becca x

Day #*315*

Hey there!

Sorry for being MIA recently. After having a week in Crete with Will it's been non stop really. Two days back in England and it was back to University, and since then it's just been settling back in. From today I'll try to get back on to this, even if not a lot is happening right now. Back to lectures tomorrow though so that's something! There are only 50 days left to do this now so there's no point in giving up now. 

Sleep well,

Becca x

Day #314

Hey there!

Today has been based around the fact that I go on holiday tomorrow, and that's exciting. Will and I are going on our first holiday together to Puskopiano in Crete. 

Dad and I went into town for last minute shopping and checking of money, before starting to pack as soon as we got home. I had my clothes sorted anyway so it was just getting all the other bits together and in my suitcase. I also picked up my train ticket to get to Gatwick tomorrow, wild times. 

I'm sad to be leaving my dad alone, but I always seek comfort in the fact that my dog will still be there. Also, my mum will be back in a few days so it won't be too long he is alone. 

As we're off on holiday I am unsure as to whether I will get a chance to blog or not. I will try to keep as up to date as possible though!

Yamas!

Becca x

Day #313

Hey there!

I have had a lovely day today, despite still feeling ill and a bit down from the breakdown yesterday. It was family time today though so it was easier to be positive. 

We went for a walk along the newly opened refurbished Harbour Arm in Folkestone, which has a load of pop up food and drink shops as well as entertainment. After looking around we wandered to Rocksalt where we sat and had a drink, just enjoying spending time together chatting. On our way back to the car we shared some fresh chips and it was just lovely. 

Since then my sister has gone home, and my mother has gone away for work. I won't see Em for a few months now, and I won't get to see my mother until I get back from holiday. It's sad but unfortunately it just how everything is working out at the moment. 

The first photo today is one I took on my proper camera that I haven't used in a while. We have two sunflowers in our garden, and as the sun was out this morning bees were a-buzzing. I managed to get up close and love the colours of the photo, it's the first photo in a while I've felt genuinely proud of. 

I hope you've had a good weekend,

Becca x

Day #312

Hey there. 

I woke up in a good mood today, but unfortunately it didn't last. When I got home from Wills I decided to try my bikinis on to see how they looked, and it initiated a breakdown. I haven't looked at myself in the mirror and felt sick in a good few weeks so my self confidence has taken a big hit today. I'm trying to be positive but the thought of being in public in a bikini scares the hell out of me. I know I've come far from where I started but it's just not enough. 

Apart from that I've done a few little things today. I had my haircut, changed some money for holiday, and baked. We were given apples from another neighbour so as my sister is here I made an apple crumble. It was super good again, and my mother said it may be better than the first one! I also took the dog out with my sister to get some fresh air. It was nice to be outside, as well as getting to talk to her properly. 

I'm a bit cold and worried I'm coming down with something so I'm in bed getting ready to fall asleep. Sleep well,

Becca x

Day #311

Hey there. 

My sister came home for a doctors appointment today, so we managed to spend a little bit of time together and go into town. Apart from that the day was pretty relaxing. 

This evening I headed over to Deal. It was one of my girl friends birthdays a few weeks ago so we went for a meal and a couple of drinks. I haven't felt close with them for a long time for various reasons, but it was nice to be invited out and get to talk to them again properly. It also worked out well as it meant Will picked me up from town and we're settling down for cuddles now as its so cold. 

Have a good weekend,

Becca x