Day #244

Hey there. 

Today I had work, however I unfortunately had to leave after two hours due to illness. This has meant I haven't done a lot today and have felt quite rough and down, but I think I'm getting better now. Luckily tomorrow is my day off so I can fully recoup properly (hopefully). I did manage to spend some time outside and finally got a tiny bit of colour which is good! I miss being out in the sun all of the time.

Hope your Monday has been good,

Becca x

Day #243

Hey there. 

Today has been my day off and it's been an odd one. Most of the day has been spent being a grown up - including doing washing, tidying, mowing the lawn and shopping. It was nice to be productive actually and doing all my jobs that needed to be done. 

This evening William took me on a date. Again you'd think this is quite a grown up thing to do, however we went to the cinema to watch the new 'Minions' film which is obviously aimed at children. It was such a good film though and actually pretty funny, and it was nice to do something different. 

Back to work tomorrow, be prepared for the Monday blues!

Becca x

Day #242

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Working today was sad as the weather was so wonderful. I did have an hour lunch so I managed to come home and comfort the dog and myself which was nice. The rest of the day has just been spent relaxing and let myself cool off. It's been so nice to not have to go out or do anything as I haven't had the chance to do this for a few days. 

Enjoy your weekend!

Becca x

Day #241

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I've been super tired all day today because I went out last night, although I sill got about 7 hours sleep. I managed to power through work though and had finished by 4.30 ish. I actually made dinner for myself tonight of chicken and veg wraps - it's one of my favourite things to make! It also means I have just enough left over for lunch/dinner tomorrow which works out well. 

This evening has been spent in Deal with William. An artist he really likes was playing at his local pub so we went along. I'd never heard any of his songs before but it was such a brilliant performance, with good music and a good personality - and also perfect company. 

Viva Friday!

Becca x

Day #240

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Work was super fun as per usual today - oh well! The money is getting me through it. After work I took the dog for a walk, then got ready to go out. Tonight my old group of friends were meeting in Deal to get drunk, and I managed to pluck up the courage to go too. It may sound silly as they are my friends, but my anxiety has really been playing up when it comes to this. It was hard for me but quite nice to see them actually, and I think a few of us are going out on Saturday for a couple of drinks. All fun and games!

Good night,

Becca x

Day #239

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Today was my day off and overall it has been wonderful. I was supposed to have a haircut this afternoon, however when I arrived there was a note in the window saying that they were shut - needless to say I was not best pleased as I had not been informed before arriving there. However, this morning was lovely as I managed to spend time with my doggy. I had to put flea protection on her so she wasn't my biggest fan, but I managed to persuade her to love me again after playing with her in the garden and giving her treats.

This afternoon I met Will and we went to Dover Castle. I haven't been there in over seven years so it was lovely to see how much has changed there, but it is still as beautiful as ever. We went into the secret tunnels and walked everywhere so it was good exercise as well  as soaking up the history.

Back to work tomorrow so I best be off to sleep. Good night!

Becca x

Day #238

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As I got to work this morning there was information that the port was closed at Calais due to industrial action at the port and MyFerryLink. This evidently caused problems for us, and we were rammed with calls all morning. It wasn't fun, but it's all experience - especially dealing with unhappy customers. I managed to get through it without a breakdown though so that's a bonus too. 

Again I haven't done much this evening as I'm just so tired from waking up at 6.30 this morning. I want to take my dog out, however I have a weird thing about leaving the house when it's just me so I will be getting over that soon and getting out with her. 

Have a good evening,

Becca x

Day #237

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Being out properly working is crazy. Out of the training room there's is a need to be much more independent. As today was my first day in the actual call centre I made a few mistakes as could be expected, however I am becoming more confident already. As I've been at work 10-6 I haven't done much else today, and I have work at 8 tomorrow so it's an early night for me. 

Bisous,

Becca x

Day #236

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I've had a lovely weekend, and feel really quite relaxed right now which is brilliant. I'm not in work until 10am tomorrow which is good so I can have a little bit of a lay in. I do need to give the house a tidy sooner rather than later but will have to wait and see how work goes. 

Today I met my sister in Dover and we carried out a few errands. We've also made smoothies again and even did super quick baking. We made banana oat cupcakes that are super good. 

I went for dinner this evening with Will, his parents and his grandparents. We went to Canterbury to go to Pizza Express and it was lovely. We were outside as the sun was still shining on the longest day of the year, and it was lovely. 

Now to get back to getting ready for work,

Becca x

Day #235

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Oh I really appreciate weekends right now. This is going to change again though as I only have random single days off no set weekend. It's fine just have to get used to it!

Today I've been out with my sister. At home we made our own fresh fruit smoothies, then had a wonderful fresh bread lunch. This evening both of our boyfriends came round to meet each other, and just to chill. It's been a lovely relaxing day and I'm looking forward to tomorrow.

Sleep well,

Becca x

Day #234

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Today has been a whirlwind. We were due to go on a return boat trip from Dover to Calais after work, however the manager decided to use it as an 'educational'. This means that we ended up leaving work early to tour around both ports and experience the vip area on different ships. It's been a wonderful experience, however I am now exhausted and just want to sleep. 

My sister has come home for the weekend which is lovely. It means That the messenger sisters are together (including scoobus) and that's super cute. 

Anyway good night,

Becca x

Day #233

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Today my parents went on their holidays and left me with the dog. Super fun times with my best friend ensue I'm sure!

This evening will came round and we treated ourselves to a Chinese and watched game of thrones. It has to be another early night as I'm on 9-5 for the last time for a while tomorrow. 

Adios!

Becca x

Day #232

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My day has once again been working 9-5, again taking live calls. However straight after work I drove to Deal to surprise Will as I hadn't seen him since early Subday, he was super happy and surprised and it was cute. I was only there for a short while, but it was nice to just relax after work with him. 

My parents go away tomorrow so have spent he night packing. Therefore the whole of our living room is full of stuff to be packed, and I wanted to keep out the way. I went shopping quickly, then decided to bake cookies for work tomorrow. They don't look the coolest but they taste pretty okay, so I hope people at work like them. 

Another early night over here!

Becca x

Day #231

hey there.

after my anxiety last night, I woke up hoping it had passed like usual. however, upon awaking I realised this was not the case as I still felt horrible. all day I have not felt like myself and it's horrible, especially as people I barely know have commented that I haven't been as chatty as previously. 

oh well, I have had a positive part to the day as at work I finally got a chance to take live calls. it was only shortly at the end of the day, but I did receive approximately five calls, all of which were difficult. it is good to finally have practise though, and we are on live calls from now on in the training room which is so reassuring. there are people straight there if we need them as it is just a small room, so we can get past a lot of teething problems we may have being live before we go into the actual call centre.

anyway I hope you like the photos from my garden today. this is my dads haven, and he puts his all into making it look the best it can - so when he goes away there is a lot of pressure on me. I love that there are so many birds around the garden, especially when you can get such good photos of them contrasting the garden.

a bientôt,

Becca x

Day #230

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At work today we were supposed to be learning a new system, however there were a lot of issues. This made the day pretty damn long but oh well, coffee got me through it. 

As soon as I got home the coffee was still pumping through me, so I told my dog out for a quick power walk. I actually went out again with my mother and the dog, so have nearly walked 3 miles today and I feel good for that. I've also done some on spot jogging which really got me feeling good. 

However, late this evening anxiety has hit me hard. I have just felt so damn down I had to have a bath to relax and try not to cry, and since then I got straight into bed. I haven't wanted to speak to anyone, including my parents which is horrible, but Will has been messaging and reassuring me -keeping me as sane as I can be right now. 

It's bed time for me now because I want this anxiety to go before work tomorrow. I'd hate to wake up and not be able face going, as I do enjoy it. Right now though it seems like it could happen and I do not want that to be the case. 

Sleep well,

Becca x

Day #229

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I've had a lovely weekend, really lovely. Today there was a food festival in Walmer (which is where Will lives) so this morning we went to have a look around. There was such lovely food and drink, especially this strawberry and banana smoothie and home made fudge. 

I've just been relaxing today which is well needed. I'll be off to sleep soon as I'm back to work tomorrow. Exciting times. 

Adios,

Becca x

Day #228

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Today has been absolutely wonderful. The day was spent in Canterbury with my parents and sister, taking in history and enjoying our time together. We went for breakfast at a Pancake House and it was amazing, I had strawberry coulis on mine and it was gorgeous. We then spent the day half following the family trail for the Magna Carta, and that was really interesting. 

Tonight has been spent at Wills house with his family. His brother and girlfriend have come down for the weekend, so his grand parents came over and we had a lovely big meal. It was such a cute night, especially as after dinner we sat in the garden drinking and talking. Today has just been wonderful overall!

Hope you're enjoying your weekend,

Becca x

Day #227

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It's Friday - yay! Now I'm back into a routine and doing a full working week at the moment, I can fully appreciate that Friday feeling and it is good. I'm looking forward to a little bit of a lay in tomorrow, however my sister is coming home and it's the last weekend my parents are home before they jet off so we will be up and about spending time together. Not quite sure of the plan yet, but I can't wait to spend the day with them all. 

Have a good weekend!

Becca x

Day #226

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Today has been another long day at work, role playing to become familiar with what is expected of us. It is enjoyable though and I like my training group which is good, just want to get stuck in now - as scary as that seems. 

Tonight Will was the loveliest and came to see me for a few hours. I've felt a bit drained at the moment so all o needed was some time with him just chilling and not worrying about anything. Also he has been stroking my hair so I'm even more tired and I can't wait to fall asleep. I'm waiting until I hear that he is home safe though, just to put my mind at ease.

One more day till the weekend!

Becca x

Day #225

Hey there. 

This is my view from where I park for work. On a clear day the view is gorgeous, especially with the castle within eye sight. 

I was at work this morning, then Willl met me at lunch so we could go to Maidstone. Here we had registration to work at the War And Peave Revival in Folkestone during late July. It was only a short meeting so we decided to have a wander around the area and do a bit of shopping. I bought three new smart tshirts and a dress, and Willgot two new DVDS. On the way back home we stopped in ashford to get an early dinner at Nandos. Both of us had been craving it for a while so this was the perfect opportunity. 

Sleepy time now,

Becca x

Day #224

hey there!

day two of a ten day training program.. and i'm getting pretty drained already, oops. I think it is just getting used to it, and honestly although overall I'm tired, when I got home today I wasn't as exhausted as yesterday. The training room has no windows so it is just fluorescent lighting, and just staring at computers isn't so fun - it is getting easier to use the system though which is good. Also the actual call centre is really well lit naturally so when training is done it should be fine.

The photos today are of a fat pigeon that seems to hang around in my garden. I was looking forward to seeing some of the more exciting smaller birds, but this is the one that always seems to be around. It's nice actually to see some detail on this species as they are often overlooked, and they are really quite pretty.

adios,

Becca x

Day #223

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My first photo today of my dog scoobie, sums up my feelings this evening. I'm absolutely shattered after my first full day in a year - I haven't even had a nap! That's a big thing as I'm always tired, but the prospect of money makes it easier. I've taken less of my stronger pain medication so I'm slightly less tired, but as soon as I got home from work it hit me. 

Entering the working world today was pretty interesting. I'm not going to lie, this morning was boring. However this is quite expected as it's the beginning of a new training group, and there was a lot of paper work to fill out. Once we finally got into starting to learn the system was pretty interesting. 

Anyway I'm shattered so it's bath time for me and I'll be off to bed very shortly I expect. 

Good evening!

Becca x

Day #222

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Today is my last day before I enter the working world, so I've been enjoying it. This morning I went to Hythe again, by with my parents this time. We had a walk around the town before stopping for coffee and cake. I say that as my parents had that and I had a lovely refreshing smoothie. 

I've been getting a bit anxious about starting work tomorrow. To make me feel better Will drove all the way to my house to cheer me up. We went for a lovely walk along the cliffs to the Memorial, and I'm feeling a lot more relaxed now. 

Sleep well,

Becca x

Day #221

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Last night there were two hedgehogs in my garden so my dad excitedly gathered us all to look at them. They are such amazing creatures it's lovely to see them up close. My dad has actually built his own 'Hedgehog House' in our garden, so they are always welcome in the Messenger household.

Today Will and I went to Hythe, and he bought a picnic for us. We sat and relaxed in a park by the canal with our food, before going to the canal and hiring a rowing boat. I wasn't particularly good so Will was the captain of our ship - but I did feel bad at how much he rowed in an hour! We came back to mine afterwards and just chilled, after playing and running around with my dog in the garden for a little while.

This evening I went on a walk to the Battle of Britain Memorial with my parents and dog. This is such a rare occurrence for us all to go dog walking together, so it was super nice. The wind was a little nippy, but all in all it was quite a pleasant summer eve. This exercise made me feel better about the picnic and food I've eaten today, which is good too.

I hope you're having a wonderful weekend!

Becca x

Day #220

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Today has once again been relaxing, and it was lovely to wake up to Will again. We played a bit of Xbox then watched the film Layer Cake, which was pretty good, before I came home. Since then I've napped and finally sorted out all of my clothes, and that's a big task in itself. I don't understand how I have all of these clothes, I definitely don't wear them but they are so lovely I don't want to get rid of them!

Enjoy your weekend,

Becca x

Day #219

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Today I went to the doctors to get a note written, and to get my ears checked out as I've been in a lot of pain. One pf my ear drums is really inflamed which explains a lot, but it will have to just get better in it own time. 

This evening I have come over to Deal to see Will. We have been over to a pub called The Lighthouse to see some live music. I fell in love with the first act called Hannah Schneider, and as Will is so cute he bought me her CD (which she signed) whilst I was having a wee. 

The weekend is almost upon us!

Becca x

Day #218

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Today I had my interview at Port Lympne to work within the Mansion Hotel during events. Being in the mansion was amazing, as it is decorated so ornately and interestingly. The interview was relaxed again, which really calmed my nerves as for some reason I got super nervous before. I was in the middle of the zoo for free and was so tempted to go round, however I decided it wasn't the best time to do it as I was on my own and dressed pretty smartly. 

There is more good news though, as on the spot I was offered the job. I wasn't expecting this, but was very happy and accepted it. This means that I now have two summer jobs, which could be interesting. The event staff job will train me up in bar work which will be extremely useful if I need to get a small job at uni. Mother and I had a few glasses of prosecco tonight to celebrate which has been super lovely. 

Happy hump day!

Becca x

Day #217

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This morning I had an interview for the call centre of  P&O Ferries. It was a relaxed interview which was good, and calmed my nerves about interviews. I still have an interview tomorrow to work in the posh hotel at one of my favourite zoos, so hopefully that'll be okay. 

There is good news as late this evening I got a call from P&O offering me the job! This means that two weeks from Monday I will be in training, and earning money straight away. I won't get paid till mid next month with sucks a bit, but I can hold out till then! I still want to go for the interview tomorrow as I could potentially donors jobs as they are part time, but this job at P&O is my main priority right now. 

A bientot,

Becca x

Day #216

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Not a lot to report today, as it's just been a chilled one. Still a bit ill so recovering for my interview tomorrow. The photo today is my dog Scoobie watching Springwatch, she loves watching animals on telly which is super cute. 

Au revoir,

Becca x