Day #95

Hey there!

I've been actually productive today - go me! Last night I wrote myself a to do list for th day, however I have decided to extend it to all weekend so I can do it properly. 

Tonight I think we are just going over to wills flat for a few drinks, at least that is how it is supposed to start. Will and I may be going to a post grad party, but taking it as it comes. 

Anyway the wine is calling, so goodbye!

Becca x

Day #94

Hey there. 

How good does my dinner look? It tasted even better than it looked. It was stuffed with garlic and herb cheese and it was absolutely beautiful. I was super proud of myself, even making a sauce and having vegetables. 

It's not all good news though, as I've finally heard back about my car. It had been decided that it is going to be written off, and I am absolutely gutted. I feel exhausted and so upset about this. There is nothing I can do though, and I will be getting a new car... It is just the wait now. 

Oh well, I'll be off to sleep now to try and relax about it. 

Becca x

Day #93

Hey there. 

Pretty average student day today; slept, ate, did a little work, and slept. Yes I know I said that twice, but a lot of sleeping is involved in student life. 

Tomorrow I have my first ever 9am lecture and I am not excited in the slightest. I've started becoming less and less of a morning person (but I'm not really an afternoon or evening person either), so getting up will be hard. Oh well, hopefully learning about soil systems will be worth it. Hopefully. 

I did treat will and I tonight though, and made us a fajita feast. It was super lovely, and easy to make all the little bits so we could put them together as we wanted. We are just cute. 

In a while crocodile,

Becca x

Day #92

Hey there!

Today has been my flat mate and best friend here at universitys birthday, Macauley. We have spent most of the day together which has been nice, just chilling and eating Subway, then drinking tonight. 

It was just a small shindig at ours tonight to celebrate. Mac did 19 shots within about 15 minutes to celebrate each of his years, and that therefore has not been the best! He is enjoying his night though, and has gone into town with the boys in hope of pulling. That's boys. 

See you later alligator,

Becca x

Day #91

Hey there!

Pretty boring day today, not a lot has happened. I didn't managed to go to my lecture this afternoon because of how my pain I was in, so I went to the doctors.  Nothing is particularly wrong, just having to take tablets as usual, and wait for the referral for physio. 

Apart from that I've just been with Will today just relaxing, as we haven't been able to do that much recently. He was super lovely and came to the doctors with me earlier so I wasn't alone which I really appreciated. I'm a lucky girl. 

Until the morrow,

Becca x

Day #90

Hey there!

I left early from my nans this morning, and I've been thrown back into uni life. I've had lectures today, and have been napping in between which I've loved. 

Tonight we've been at Wills flat to celebrate the launch of his student website Student Beans - and I am so proud of him. He has had his first article published online for the magazine, and I feel seriously so happy for him. 

Okay I am off as I shall be leaving soon so goodnight!

Becca x

Day #89

Hey there!

I'm feeling sad due to the fact that I've left home again. I felt like I wasn't ready to come back to uni, but now I'm at my nans - the halfway point - I'm feeling more positive. 

My dad has been absolutely wonderful, as it is him who offered to take me back to uni as I haven't got a car. We'll be leaving super early tomorrow so I can get back in time for my lectures, but at lewst I'll be able to just throw myself back into it. 

My car is being taken to the garage tomorrow so I will be very on edge about the goings on. As long as I'm kept in the loop I will be happy though, and it means hopefully soon I will be back at home to collect it - and get back into driving again. 

Catch you on the flip flop,

Becca x

Day #88

Hey there. 

Today has been absolutely lovely. I have been able to spend time with all of my family, as well as seeing friends. This morning my family and I went shopping in Canterbury, and it was lovely therapy for me to feel a bit better. I did have to stop earlier than I wanted to because of my whiplash, but oh well the time was lovely anyway. 

I went into folkestone this evening to meet two of my close friends. They have both not gone to uni this year and were free, and it was wonderful to see them. Nothing special happened really, but it doesn't always have to to be a lovely night that means a lot.

It has been nice to get out and about today, as it takes my mind off of the whole accident. Yes I am still in pain but that I can deal with after always having pain as long as I remember, so that is fine. 

Until tomorrow,

Becca x

Day #87

Hey there. 

I'm still pretty shaken up from last night, and I didn't end up getting home until midnight. I have had trouble sleeping as well which is not fun, so on top of aching I'm still exhausted. 

It has been good to spend time with my family today, and it was lovely that my best friend came to see me. I haven't seen her since Christmas Eve so it was wonderful to spend time with her again. 

I'm off to relax now, so goodnight!

Becca x

Day #86

Hey there.  

Today has been one of the worst days of my life. After finding out last night that my neighbour has passed, as well as exam stres, I have been in the dumps. Because of this I decided to drive all the way home to Kent as seeing my family would make me feel better. The problem? I am currently sat in my car on the hard shoulder of them25, waiting to be recovered as I have been in a car accident. Luckily myself and the other dirver are okay, just our cars are a bit worse for wear. Today has been shit and I can't wait to be back in my double bed athome. 

I hope your day has been better than mine!

Becca x

Day #85

Hey there. 

Not much to report today, I've been super ill. Not hangover ill, just ill. It sucks. I couldnt even make it into town, just stayed at the flat chundering which was not fun. Before that it was a wonderful evening though, as it was nice to relax with everyone. 

As part of my body confidence quest, I forced myself to wear a body-con dress last night too. It felt quite nice to be in one again, even though I know I don't look as good as I used to it in. Oh well, there's still time for that. 

I'm off the sleep, so goodnight!

Becca x

Day #84

Hey there!

My exams are finally over! Hooray! I'm pretty chuffed I made it through 5 exams, and I'll be even happier if I've passed them. Tonight we are celebrating, and as I haven't been drunk since November I am going to actually enjoy myself. Currently we are sat in the flat drinking, but stupidly I just did a vodka shot so I don't feel particularlly good. 

Oh well, something lovely happened to me today. You obviously know my boyfriend Will by now, but he has done the sweetest thing for me. To celebrate the end of exams and me getting through them despite how I've felt, he got me a guitar! It's a three quarter one so it'll be easier to learn on, and I'm so grateful for it. This definitely again showed how much of an amazing boyfriend he really is, and how special he makes me feel. 

Anyway, enough of the soppy! I'm off to enjoy my night, see you tomorrow!

Becca x

Day #83

Hey there!

One more day, one more day until my exams are finally over! I have had exams for three weeks now with varying levels of confidence, but I'm looking forward to this being done now.  

Tomorrow night we are having a bit celebration at our flat then heading into town. Over the past week it has been two of our flat mates birthday so we will be celebrating that as well as the end of the January exam period. So an excuse to get drunk! I haven't been properly drunk since November, so I really hope I feel well tomorrow night in order to relax and drink as much as I want. 

I feel a lot less stressed about this exam tomorrow which is really good. I know this will probably change later, but I'm enjoying it for now. I have been able to paint my nails today which I haven't done in months, and they look pretty if I do say so myself. Okay that's stupid I know and no one cares, but hopefully soon I'll have a lot more interesting things to talk about!

I'm off to revise for me, so adios!

Becca x

Day #82

Hey there. 

I made cupcakes today! That was my chill out relax time, however my anxiety smacked me in the face and it wasn't as relaxing as I hoped. Oh well, they are still pretty kick ass, and definitely taste better than they look. 

Today I also made a proper meal for myself, of sausages, Yorkshire puddings, vegetables and gravy. It was super good. I'm so full now I just need to lie still to appreciate it. 

That's all for today, I shall be doing more revisions tonight after seeing William for a bit. 

Becca x

Day #81

Hey there!

I have got four exams out of the way now.. Only one more to go now, that is so exciting! I'm embracing being in the spirit of exams at the moment, as this evening I have been in the library preparing for my final one. 

Not much else to report today, I did some washing and have spent time with Will - wild times. 

I shall be off now to relax,

Becca x

Day #80

Hey there!

I don't quite know what happened a few hours ago, but I was suddenly overcome with anxiety and became super stressed. I'd been having a lovely time with Will, but I had to just leave. I came back to mine and did some work in preparation for my exam tomorrow - I still have to memorise what I'm writing but hopefully it won't be too bad. 

Anyway, back to the breakdown. I had to get away, so when Will came to check on me I decided that I wanted to just go for a drive. We put on our music and just drove for about half an hour and it was absolutely wonderful and really quite relaxing. Once we got back we sat in my bed cuddling, watching Netflix and eating ice cream - pretty perfect and I can definitely say I destressed a lot. 

Apart from that episode, I've mainly been working today for my exam. As I said it isn't too bad, but I just want it over and done with now - especially because it is on a Saturday, and is my penultimate exam. The worst part is having to remember your answer, as it is a seen question (well two), so you have to have to memory as well as the knowledge. Safe to say I'm scared I'm going to have mind blank. 

Oh well, also today I finally stripped my hair again. As of this moment I am no liger pink or purple, and am now a rather fetching shade of ginger. That is totally cool though, it's a nice colour. I may end up dying it light brown on Tuesday to celebrate end of exams, but honestly I'm just going to wait and see how I feel. 

Anyway I'm off to sleep so I can wake up refreshed, and ready to smash this exam. 

Becca x

Day #79

Hey there!

Oops I had a bit of a kerfuffle with the post yesterday, and I've just been told it didn't actually publish... But it's up there now!!

Today has been another day full of revision, oh the fun! It has actually been quite productive, and I'm looking forward to getting back into it. As much as I hate the topic I have the exam on, I am trying to find the enthusiasm for it and it seems to be working. 

I have also started my diet diary today. This means I completely measured my body, and weighed myself so I am prepared and can keep track of everything. I am even tracking everything I am eating and exercise - even if it's just using my Slendertone!

I shall be off to revise some more and then have a relaxing night. That is all for now!

Becca x

Day #78

Hey there!

Oops I'm sorry this is a bit late, mind you I haven't been to sleep yet so it is basically the same day...no? Okay sorry!

I popped into town today with Will to run a few errands and get ready for the day. We came back and rested for a bit, but since then we have been revising. We went to the library for a few hours which was super helpful, and since being back I've been doing a bit more work too just planning out ideas. 

My photo of the day is a shameless selfie and I apologise for that... But I am starting on being more positive and self confident as well as losing weight, so this is something I need to do to prove to myself that it's not as bad as I think. So please put up with a few selfies over the near future, but I will get my self confidence up, especially with help from comments, friends and family. 

In a while crocodiles,

Becca x

Day #77

Hey there!

There isn't a lot to report today, just a pretty unproductive day! Feels like real student life really. It was snowing this morning which was absolutely lovely, but sadly it didn't stick. I wanted to frolic!

I have done a bit of revision, planning out which essays I will be writing on Saturday for the exam. I am looking forward to getting in to writing the essays, as sad as that seems. This evening Will and I ordered a pizza to celebrate his first exam being completed, and watched some Netflix. We had a few drinks in my flat afterwards too which was lovely and relaxing. The guy in my second photo is called Mac, and is my flat mate. He is single ladies, so if you want any more information just let me know!

I have to congratulate Will on how successful he's been recently. He has been given the opportunity to write for two different student news and entertainment outlets. I am so proud of him gaining this experience and doing something he is passionate about. To get the links to the sites he will be featured on, visit his blog at www.williamiproject365.blogspot.com.

I am off now, see you later alligators!

Becca x

Day #76

Hey there. 

Just a quick one today as I am exhausted my exam this afternoon I have completely mixed feelings about, however it is done now so there is no point in worrying. 

I haven't felt well in general today, feeling sick and having a headache and other pains, but I have gotten through them and on with other things. This evening has been a break for me, so I can get back into revision tomorrow with a fresh perspective.

 I have been told to give credit to my flat mate Mac today, as the hot chocolate photographed was his masterpiece - but jeez it was big. We had this after going on an adventure to find somewhere that sells creme eggs in aberystwyth - and hurt so you know the answer is the co-op. 

Anyway, until tomorrow!

Becca x

Day #75

Hey there. 

The day before an exam is always horrible. Especially for a worrier like me. I know it isn't a big deal really, and it is only first year, but I hate exams with a passion as I never manage to reach my full potential in them. I did do well in my GCSEs but it has gone very rapidly down hill from there, and I don't want this to be even worse than last year. This is something I love and I want to prove to myself I am doing the right thing with my life. My stress levels are causing me to become overtired and therefore unmotivated, as well as having a lot of pent up feelings about other stuff too. I keep fixating on my weight at the moment, even though I know I am not fat, I am just not comfortable in my own skin right now. And for some reason this has come out in my doodles earlier. 

I have been productive today though and went into town. I bought myself a harmonica so that when I have more spare time I can sit down and learn a new instrument, and hopefully that'll make Will happy too as we may finally be able to be in a little band of our own. Also, I made an awesome tuna pasta bake and I'm proud that I am actually cooking. There is so much that there will be enough for a few days which is a big relief, as I won't have to panick about cooking as well as revision. 

Anyway I need to get to bed and de stress. Good night!

Becca x

Day #74

Hey there. 

I have spent the majority of the day asleep, wonderful. It is quite worrying actually as I'm tired all of the time, no matter how much I sleep. Oops. 

Will and I made chilli for 'lunch' as well and it was super good, it felt nice to be cooking! I really am craving making deserts or cakes at the moment, so hopefully soon. 

I am spending this evening in the library, revising with some friends. We are on a break at the moment as we have hit the wall... Oh well we'll get on it soon. I'm off to get back on it!

Becca x

Day #73

Hey there. 

Well my exam today was horrible. Some things I know but other parts the answers were all so similar it was very stressful and I can feel that I will have to resit. It's okay though because everyone else felt this way, so that's more reassuring. 

Other than my exam and revision today I have gone shopping and finally unpacked, then I fell asleep for three hours... Great fun. 

Tonight has been spent drinking in the kitchen. The photo today is of 'my team' as Will put it - gathered drunk around the table. The three boys who aren't Will are my flat mates, and are the people I will be living with next year. I'm so glad they all get on it makes me very content. This photo really amuses me because Craig (on the left of the photo) has been given three hands as he moved as I took the panorama - it's quite creepy actually. 

I'm not feeling the happiest at the moment and I don't really know why.. Oh well I'll be fine! Will is being lovely and caring but he won't leave it when I'm telling him to so William, when you read this, stop worrying it'll all be fine. :-)

I shall be sleeping soon, so good night!

Becca x

Day #72

Hey there.

I don't know where it has come from, but suddenly I am overwhelmed with stress. I despise exams so much, and it has gotten to the point now in which I have no motivation for the revision. The worst thing about my exams is the fact that they are 100% of my module mark, so for the multiple choice ones I have to get at least 50 of them to pass or I have to resit. I don't want to think about that now though.

The highlight of my day so far has been that I got my new Slendertone belt delivered. I have wanted one of these for years, and finally decided to buy myself one a few days ago. I know it'll take its time to work, but as I can't do a lot of ab exercises because of my back, it is so much more worth it. I shall finally be sexy soon.

Anyway, I am off to revise and eat and cry myself to sleep. Adios!

Becca x

Day #71

Hey there!

Today I had my very first university exam, and it felt quite different to ones at school which was brilliant. There was no queuing in alphabetical order or registers, just a group of people waiting outside a room to enter their doom. The exam was multiple choice which makes it seem easy, but that isn't really the case at this level. Fair enough once you know your stuff you can eliminate answers that don't make sense, but others are so closely linked it's easy to confuse. Overall it wasn't too bad, but I definitely could have done better. 

This evening has been spent with my boyfriend Will and flat mate Mac. We have been doing some casual drinking as it has been a long time since we have all been drunk, and also it gave us a chance to try out some new drinking games in preparation for the upcoming semester. I haven't felt well today though so I couldn't really drink, but that is fine as it means I will get on with more work tomorrow to be prepared for my next exam on Friday. 

For now, it's a good night from me. 

Becca x

Day #70

Hey there!

I had forgotten how much I hate exams, and how stressed they make me feel. I have my first official university exam tomorrow and honestly I am so scared. I in no way feel prepared enough, but I am getting up super early to be charged for the day. 

It is wonderful having Will two minutes away again though, as when I get stressed I can pop over quickly and he will reassure me. I am a lucky girl. His flat have been having Nerf gun wars all day, in amongst revision of course, and I feel super jealous of how close they all are. 

To be able to see everyone again is absolutely lovely. I have hardly seen anyone from my flat yet, but my other friends that I have it feels like we haven't been apart! Super loser ish I know. 

Anyway I need to sleep now so I'm well rested. I shall be back to report on how terrible the exam was! Good night :-)

Becca x

Day #69

Hey there.

I'm getting terrible at remembering to do this at the moment, mind you I have to set myself reminders daily to do a lot of things. Today I've driven back to Aber from my nan's so I am absolutely exhausted... And this shall be a short post as I am having a relatively early night. My photo is of Will earlier. He made himself chilli for dinner, however over estimated the spice.. And therefore went a bit pink and hot - it was particularly amusing. 

Until tomorrow,

Becca x

Day #68

Hey there.

Oh how fun today has been, packing and tidying my room in Kent up to move back to Wales. I have driven half way back to University today, so currently Will and I are at my nan's and shall be spending the night here. It's quite sad to have left home again, but it will be good to be back in my second home and have some space.

The plus side of leaving today has been the fact that my mother cooked me a 'last meal' of steak which was divine! Also, i love getting to see my grandparents - even if all we are doing is watching Foyles War. On the way here I stopped to say hello to my great grandma and introduce her to Will. Sadly it couldn't be in person, but I have vowed that every time I am here I shall go to her grave and talk to her. It feels quite like therapy to talk to her about everything, and I love to feel close to her again.

That's all for today,

Becca x

Day #67

Hey there!

Day number two feeling like I am at deaths door. I am still being productive though, which I really think is showing that I am changing slightly as before I would not have done anything! This is good, and I have handed in my assignment finally which is a big relief. I still need to pack as tomorrow Will and I will be going to my nan's as a half way point back to uni, but I can do that in the morning as I really need to relax so I am up to driving.

The highlight of my day was getting two poppies delivered, one for home and one for my nan. This may not seem very exciting, but these are two of the actual poppies that were displayed at the memorial exhibition at the Tower of London. They are absolutely beautiful, and it is amazing to now be in possession of such an iconic piece of artwork.

I am off now to relax, and wait for my parents to get home. Until the morrow,

Becca x

Day #66

Hey there!

Still feeling pretty unwell today, but oh well I have to get on with it. I have actually been quite productive today; doing three clothes washes, tidying and working on uni projects. To make myself feel better I had a lovely bath with grape salts that Will gave me, which was very relaxing and did start to make me feel better.

This afternoon Will and I went to Canterbury to get a few bits - and he bought me a Build-a-Bear, which I have never been so happy about. We did the whole process together, and he made the wish on the heart that is now inside my bear, who is called George Bearsworth. Tonight we are having a night in, with a lovely M&S meal and maybe even some candles.

I shall be off, until tomorrow!

Becca x

Day #65

hey there!

I hope everyone had a wonderful night celebrating the new year! It is now officially 2015... How scary. I don't know how any of you readers (if there are any) have been over the last year, but for me it has definitely had its ups and downs. Throughout the year I didn't feel particularly happy, however apart from a few (still rather large) moments, it had been a pretty decent year. So much has changed, even over the past few months and honestly I am grateful for how things are now. I have made some amazing new friends, got in to uni to study something I am passionate about, and have now got one of the most awesome boyfriends in the world.

My last night of the year did sum up the worst points of my year though. For some reason I ended up having a breakdown and was crying a hell of a lot. I started to feel really ill too so I went up to will's room and ended up staying there all night. Will did keep checking on me though, and we had our midnight kiss at 11, as I told him to go out with all his friends.

Anyway, I need to go back to sleep now and hopefully start to feel better. Sending everyone love and good wishes,

Becca x