Day #305

Hey there!

I was up and out early this morning, as I had my last eight hour shift of the summer. It wasn't too bad actually, as it started off quite constant which made it go quicker. As the shift went on it got quieter and quieter so I had time to do other bits and pieces, such as checking emails, student finance and keeping an eye on the football scores. Will went to Ipswich today to watch the team play at home, so I did the supporting I could from work - with a constant commentary and update live streaming. 

As soon as I got home I got mother to join me on a dog walk. I really started to ache half way round our favourite circuit, but I pushed on through. I will get fitter! I've since spent my evening with my Slendertone on again, but I've had to take it off earlier than hoped as my stomach muscles are aching (in a good way). Tomorrow is weigh in day so fingers crossed!

A bientot,

Becca x

Day #304

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Apart from day three of four in a row of work, I've actually been relaxing. I've had my Slendertone on all morning, then had my dinner at lunch time because of the timing I was at work. When I got home tonight mother and I took the dog out. It's pretty creepy walking around the village when it's dark now as they've started turning all the street lights off. THis meant we only stayed on the main road up to the memorial, but some exercise is better than none. 

Ciao,

Becca x

Day #303

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Appalling weather again today. Dad and I went out on another adventure today though, to get my stuff for uni. It was just getting all cleaning products and toiletries that were needed to begin next year. I feel like I've got a few things to get sorted before I move most of my bits to uni on Tuesday. Again this evening was work, which was fine. I ended up being there late but I get paid a whole extra £2 for that so silver lining!

Adios,

Becca x

Day #302

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The weather has been horrific today. Dad and I went food shopping, our usual Wednesday activity now, which was fun as always. I've been back to work today though, on my first day on of four. It's been okay as I'm not in too much pain so hopefully I'll be staying positive till the end of the four days. 

Aloha,

Becca x

Day #301

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Day two in London today! This morning started with the best breakfast buffet I have ever seen, such a wide variety of foods and drinks it was brilliant. 

Mother and I went to central London where we went looking for a watch for me for Christmas, and I think we found one. We then went for a drink just outside Picaddily Circus, where we were actually the only people in the bar despite the weather and quality of drinks there. We got stuck in the rain so had to run into M&M world, which was quite fun actually. Next stop was the National Portrait Gallery to see the BP Portrait Award, one of my favourite exhibitions of the year. 

This afternoon we went to the Wellcome Collection, for afternoon tea in the 'Kitchen'. It was a brilliant and super tasty, but so much that we bought home our petit fours. We were so tired that we both napped on the train though, but it was a wonderful few days away. 

Sleep well,

Becca x

Day #300

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Today is my mothers birthday, so we went to London to celebrate. It's been a super long day full of lots of cocktails and cool stuff. 

We went straight to the hotel when we got to the city, and it started the day wonderfully. We had actually been upgraded to the highest room which was amazing, and this gave us club lounge access too! Lots of free food and alcohol was therefore consumed over the day. 

We went to the Tate Modern with my sister, and it was wonderful to see real Andy Warhol art. Then back to the hotel for more alcohol and getting ready for the night ahead. We got a taxi to the Shard, where we had cocktails believe it or not. Then over to Leicester Square to go to the theatre - a new play called the Mentalists. It was a weird and wonderful dark comedy with only two actors, one of them being Stephen Merchant and Steffan Rhodei (Dave from Daves coaches on Gavin and Stacy). We then met my cousin and had yet more drinks. 

It has been such a lovely day and I can't wait to sleep,

Becca x

Day #299

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This morning we went on a lovely family dog walk around the village. Dad very rarely comes out with us, so it made me very happy that he did today. It was also good because he was slow like me so I didn't feel pressured to keep up with mother. 

When we got back I was super tired, but I decided to bake. One of our neighbours had given us some of his home grown apples, so I decided to use them today. I made an apple crumble - and honestly it was pretty awesome. It wasn't too sweet, and the crumble was cooked almost perfectly. I may be blowing my own trumpet but it was one of the best crumbles I've ever tasted. 

Mum and I went out for another walk this evening with the dog. Scoobie has been such a pain in the arse recently, being so needy, but we wanted to go out so we had to give into her. She almost jumped off of the cliff twice tonight and I've never panicked so much, for such a clever dog she is such an imbecile at times.

Tomorrow is mums birthday so we are off to London for two days. We'll be meeting my sister and hopefully my cousin too, so it should be good. 

Sleep well,

Becca x 

Day #298

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I don't really happened to me today, but I had a really big dip. I couldn't bring myself to go to work mentally or physically, and it just made everything worse. I hate letting people down, but unfortunately I had to put myself first. I couldn't even face it, and honestly I didn't really care - which really is terrible.

I've tried to keep myself busy doing other stuff to perk me up though. I've done some tidying of my room as it was too hot outside, and cooked dinner. As it cooled this evening I even went out for a walk. It was a bit longer than initially planned, and I'll probably regret it tomorrow, but it was nice to not be in a ridiculous amount of back pain whilst doing such a simple activity. Other than that I've been trying to relax, and trying to focus on the positives - which is something I really usually struggle with. 

Onwards and upwards. 

Becca x

Day #297

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Today had an early start, as I had the dentist. It was good start to the day, especially as the sun was just coming out and it was getting warmer. As the weather improved I got to go out into the garden and just wander around (which I love doing), taking in the nature and the sun. There are such gorgeous butterflies around here at the moment, I'm guessing which is because of how many flowers we have outside. 

Tonight I'm off over to Wills again. His best friend and girlfriend are going to be there, so I've been informed that 'chilled drinks' will be occurring... Let's see how this turns out. 

Until tomorrow,

Becca x

Day #296

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My back pain is decreasing (finally) but I'm still pretty damn unwell. I've had such bad stomach pains it's been hard to do stuff, but I've been forcing myself through it. I had a late afternoon shift at work, which meant I finished at 5, which wasn't too bad when it got busier. I also have tomorrow off which is a plus. 

I went straight over to wills after work as tonight was date night. He drove us over to Canterbury, and we tried out a well reviewed Mexican restaurant. I wasn't crazily hungry, but we had just the right amount of food - amazing shared nachos then I had a beef taco and Will had two too. Once we got back to his I suddenly felt more ill which sucked, but he was very caring and looked after me. I'm now curled up in bed just praying for sleep. 

Adios,

Becca x

Day #295

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Okay so my photo today is a bit of a cheat, but it makes me so happy. I love baking, and love the Great British Bake Off, and this was the special commendation of the week. A lion made out of bread - amazing!

This was genuinely the highlight of my day as I haven't been very well. I did have to go to work today which was uncomfortable as it wasn't busy meaning I had nothing to distract me. This led to an evening of a pharmacy trip, and watching food programmes despite feeling unwell. 

I hope the bread lion made you smile like I did,

Becca x

Day #294

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Nothing excited has happened today sadly. Dad and I did the weekly shop which was wild as always, and then I had work. Today was my last late shift until Saturday so that has made it a bit better. The new manager, when she does these shifts too, always lets you go as soon as the phones are shut off which is another plus I guess. 

Sweet dreams,

Becca x

Day #293

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I have had a lovely day. I am still trying to push through the pain, and want to do so by not sitting around as much. This meant I managed to actually do some baking today, which I've wanted to do for ages. I made one of the tastiest simple cakes in ages, a lemon drizzle loaf cake - it is pretty delicious. 

Will and I also spent some time together today which makes me very content. After many a discussion we settled on visiting the Horby Museum, which isn't something is usually go for but it had Scalextric there and lots of interactive activities that I loved. Afterwards we drove into Margate town and just had a little walk around. My cousin was there and luckily we managed to literally bump into him at a crossing. I never get to see him so it made me super happy, just to have five minutes to talk to him properly in person. 

When we got back to Wills we were still so excited from the museum that he went straight into the loft and got his old Scalextric track and cars out. We spent ages setting up the track, but when we put the cars and connected the power source it was a sad sight. There just wasn't enough power for the cars so we had to pack it up there and then. 

Sleep well,

Becca x

Day #292

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I've had an absolutely lovely morning. To try and battle the pain and still get healthier, I went into Canterbury with my parents. When we got there most shops were still shut so we ended up going for breakfast at a wonderful little pancake house. I've never been so full afterwards, but it meant I barely ate until dinner which is good. We did some walking and shopping which was lovely, but by the end it was too painful and we had to go. 

The rest of the day was spent trying to recoup. After a little nap dinner was served, then mother and I went for a walk. I forced myself to go, even though it was slow, as I need to get my strength back. 

I hope you've had a good weekend!

Becca x

Day #291

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This morning I was majorly lazy, as I had my long weekend shift today. I was due in from 2-10, a late close which I'm used to at the moment, but it wasn't good. I have once again been in a lot of pain, and by 8pm I was having such bad issues as I couldn't use my right arm, I had to leave. It was difficult to get home but it was necessary as I had to relax. Hopefully tomorrow when I wake up I'll be feeling a bit better. 

Good night,

Becca x

Day #290

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Nothing crazy to report today. I've been in a lot of pain (still), so just been relaxing this morning. I had work this evening which was super fun, so I needed to make sure I was up to it. Initially I was supposed to go to Wills tonight so that we could go into Deal with his friends , however plans changed so I've come home alone straight after work. 

The weekend is here!

Becca x

Day #289

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The weather has been crazy today, loads of thunder, lightening and rain. It's been on and off all day, which was super fun as will and I went out today. He came to pick me up and we went to the Ashford Outlet, after popping in to see his grandparents. We both bought a few items, which we actually set out to get (apart from a top I got). Will is off out tonight so we didn't get to chill at home afterwards, but hopefully he'll have a good night as its results day so Canterbury will be crazy busy. 

The weekend is nearly here!

Becca x

Day #286

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I'm still in a lot of pain and getting very frustrated. I feel so useless and no matter what can't seem to work my words out, everything just feels like a struggle. I was in from 4-10 today and I feel like it was my breaking point. I spoke to my manager and have reduced my hours to the lowest possible, as I just can't cope. There is no point in quitting though as I only have three weeks left, so I might as well earn some more money while I can.  

Sleep well,

Becca x

Day #288

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This is crazy for me to be sharing a photo of myself in a bikini. Hopefully it'll be another push for myself to lose some more before holiday, and I want to be able to share a visible change. My Body confidence is on the increase though which is good. 

Today I officially sent off my application for a Blue Badge. It was recommended to me by my DSA assessor because of the difficulties I have walking. I really hope it's successful as it could really help me. It meant I had to have a passport photo taken though which I wasn't so please about, but I think it's one f the best I've had taken (positive thinking, right?). My dad had to go to the dentist so we went to sort it out then, but once again I was so ridiculously slow I couldn't keep up with him which is very frustrating to me. 

Anyway, another day off tomorrow thank fully. Sleep well,

Becca x

Day #287

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I stayed at wills last night, and he made me super happy by getting some lovely rose for when I finished work. It was a good relax but sleeping in a different bed with my pain wasn't the best, he is worth it though. 

Today's excitement was going food shopping with my father, crazy times. We're both slow and steady though so it works out well, and mum gets to stay home and work. I also had work today for four hours which was fine, but it just meant I had to have dinner super early v

That's all from me,

Becca x

Day #285

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Back to the call centre today for me, on my first ever late shift. I'm in today from 2pm-10pm, so hopefully it won't be too hard. Apart from work I've just been relaxing today, trying to get rid of this damn pain. I forced myself to go out for a walk but I couldn't go far and my mother actually left me to walk home as she carried on, so that made me feel great. 

Hope you're Sunday has been good,

Becca x

Day #284

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After yesterday I am absolutely exhausted. I woke up after about 7 hours sleep but I definitely needed more. I was in a ridiculous amount of pain but I carried on, had a bath, and went out. 

My parents and I went into Folkestone to do a little bit of shopping and got a drink too. I managed to get two dresses that were quick tight fitting, but miraculously didn't show as super fat. It's definitely making me a little bit more confident, and pushing me to carry on trying to lose weight. 

I ended up getting very frustrated with myself by th end of the time in town. I couldn't keep up with my parents, which meant I was even slower than my father witth a walking stick, so just felt useless. When I got home I just got into bed to try and relax and sleep it off, but when I woke up it wasn't much better. 

I forced myself to go for a walk though with mother. It was really hard but I needed to get out. Oh well I'll be off to sleep soon and hopefully it'll be better tomorrow. 

Adios,

Becca x

Day #283

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Today has been crazy. I had a nice and relaxing morning, still in a lot of pain, but it was necessary before work. I started a new job today working at the Port Lympne Mansion. The event today was a wedding, and it was certainly something different to do.

 I have been serving champagne, canapés, worked the bar, served dinner, cleaned and moved a room about. Obviously not just me, but a small team of us Worked together. I started my shift at 13.45, and finished at 02.00. It's a crazy long shift and not something I'm used to, but it was good to do something different.

Don't get me wrong, I've still been in a lot of pain today. I kept myself on medication, and let my bosses know. They were very caring and wanted to help as much as possible which was really endearing. As we were so short staffed though I felt obligated to stay, even though I know I shouldn't have.

It was wonderful to experience something different, and hopefully I'll be able to do some other work there soon. 

In a while,

Becca x

Day #282

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Today I had my DSA assessment. I felt super nervous before, only seeking comfort in the fact that my mother would be there with me. However when the assessor met me she was told that we would leave her there so I was a bit thrown. It was a lot better than I thought, more informal, which put me at ease. The assessor recommended various products to me, however I will not find out for over a month whether I will receive funding for them or not. 

I'm still in absolute agony today, so again have been pretty lazy. To prove to myself I'm not completely useless I went out along the cliffs with the dog and my mother, but it was difficult. I want the pain to relieve a bit (well completely) before tomorrow as I'm due to start a new job, but being realistic that won't happen. I'm just going to have to see what happens and if I'll be able to do it closer to the time, but fingers crossed. 

See you later,

Becca x

Day #281

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Still in super lots of pain but back to work again. Because I went out last night I forced myself to go, but it was really difficult. It sounds stupid because I'm just sat in a chair taking calls, but sitting for long periods is painful and I get really uncomfortable. I'm going to have to start thinking about stretching and all of that to try and help. Tomorrow I have my DSA meeting and I feel pretty nervous, but I'll deal with it when it comes to it. 

Sleep well,

Becca x

Day #280

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I have woken up today in absolute agony. I don't know what has happened, or why, but my back is in pieces. I feel so lost and angry with myself because I can't do anything, especially as I had to cancel on work. 

As it got to the evening I was hopped up on medication so I forced myself to go to deal. My friend Caroline leaves tomorrow so I may not get to see her for a longtime, which is super upsetting. The only reason I forced myself out is because I wanted to see her again, and I guess it was worth it. I also got to see will for a little bit after too which was super lovely. 

Hopefully the pain will have subsided slightly tomorrow. 

Becca x

Day #279

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My sister ended up staying last night as she isn't very well, so it was nice having her here when I woke up. We watched Tangled and then I took the dog out on my own. After I just chilled, had a nap, then had some lunch before going to work. It was a long day at work but when I got home the three messenger ladies went on a dog walk. It was dark by then but it was still warm and lovely to get out and chat. We just talk shit and laugh and it's just lovely. 

Adios,

Becca x

Day #278

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After mum and I had finished picking my sister up from Whitfield, the three of us decided to go for a little walk. We'd seen paragliders on the way so went searching to get a good photo. We went along the cliff paths, but unfortunately just as we got in good range the last glider had just landed. 

Mum and em went for another walk later on from Capel to Folkestone on the coastal route, but I didn't feel up to it. End boyfriend turned up at the door so we drove down to meet them at the harbour and had another wander along there. Mum prepared the most wonderful dinner when we all got back too. It was all salad bits, then some chicken and burgers too, with sweet potato wedges. After dinner Will popped in and it was lovely to see him. We just chilled and it was a lovely relaxing Sunday. 

Hope you've had a good weekend,

Becca x

Day #277

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Today I was up and at work by 7.30 am, which is the earliest I have worked in a while. It was a long shift but it meant that I was home by 4pm so still had some of my day left. To break up the shift I went to sit in my car at lunch so I could get some fresh air, and it was quite nice to just get out of the office. 

As soon as I got home, mum and I went for a walk. I forced myself to go straight away otherwise I'd risk talking myself out of it. We did a slightly shorter walk than yesterday as my hips were hurting, but we managed to do that route in the quickest time so far. After having a few days without going for walks it was good to be getting better and results to be improving again. 

Tonight has just consisted of relaxing, and taxi-ing my sister around. She has come home to go to a wedding reception with her boyfriend, so I picked him up and dropped them off too. Hopefully it means we'll be able to do something nice tomorrow all together. 

Enjoy your Saturday night,

Becca x

Day #276

Hey there. 

This morning I thought I would treat myself to a lay in before work, however it didn't work out that way. When I woke up I found out that my grandad had been rushed to the hospital in the middle of the night, and was being looked after there since then. They aren't particularly sure what is wrong, but he is in the best place. It was a big shock so it sent me downhill for the majority of the day, but he is going to get better hopefully so we just have to be positive.  

I had work this afternoon/evening but had a splitting headache. It was so bad from being stressed and being in front of a computer, I thought I was going to throw up. However I loaded myself up on painkillers and mother and I went for a walk. I ended up having two walks today actually as I stress walked before work too. 

Sending good thoughts,

Becca x