Hey there.
Still ill and in pain, so today I've done nothing. Oh well, trying to do work now, as well as sorting out stuff for my parents 30th wedding anniversary on Monday. How cute.
My mental issues at the moment are really getting quite bad, to the point that I'm scared. I absolutely hate this. I've been getting overly emotional and angry for little reason, and that's horrid. I know I shouldn't but I can't stop myself. The worst part of at the moment is the my temptation has been to hurt myself. I know it's stupid and won't help so I've been managing to talk myself out of it, but I'm scared that soon I won't be able to stop myself. I really need to sort my life out right now.
Anyway, I just needed to vent really. I don't feel as if I can actually talk to anyone about this stuff, and sadly the one person I feel most comfortable talking to about this has no reason to listen anymore - well in comparison to before anyway. This is why I need to sort myself out, so I can be happy and not feel reliant on other people hopefully.
Hope your Monday has been okay!
Becca x
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